My music has always been about my feelings, my experiences and my thoughts and so I thought I'd give you a little bit of background information on each of my songs and the events that inspired their existence. There are also samples of each song that you can play. To buy any of the tracks or the album itself, please click on the iTunes link below and it'll take you through to there. If you're a Spotify user, click their logo to add the tracks to a playlist. If you would like a physical copy of the CD, please contact me.
1. Hard Goodbyes
Ironically I actually wrote this song when I was really happy! I simply heard a couple of chords coming from a bar I was walking past after rehearsal one night and it just brought up thoughts of harder times and the song almost wrote itself in my head.
I was partly inspired on this track by my friend Mike reading me a poem called “He wishes for the cloths of Heaven” by Yeats. I never remembered the exact words but the idea stayed with me until I fell in love and then the idea grew along with my feelings.
3. No Pretence
I always felt like the outsider as a child and teenager and I wrote this song in my early twenties when I finally decided that I didn't want to keep trying to fit in. That decision really set me free and I've been so much happier since. I've found that if you can be happy in yourself then you will always be able to cope with whatever life throws your way however hard it is to get through it.
4. Complex Guy
This song was inspired by an ex whose personality seemed to change throughout my time with him. He was a good man but he had his demons and it was hard to watch them haunt him so. I hope that he wins against them some day.
5. My Man
I reckon that this song probably speaks for itself! Interestingly though, this is the only song on the album that I originally wrote as a poem. It's also the only song on the album for which I've had to change the lyrics due to rudeness reasons! ;-)
This track was written about a few people that I'd met that just seemed to need a bit of help in finding themselves. Having been there, I felt that maybe being a friend to them was all they needed and I hope I managed to help a little.
Whenever I sing this song I feel summer closing in and remember all those great times you can have with someone you hardly know and those connections you make in such a short time that will stay in your mind and your heart for the rest of your life. It also makes me tap my feet and jiggle a bit which I always think is a good sign!
8. Here & Now
Here & Now is about those all too brief and rare moments in life when the world seems to stop and you feel completely at peace. When they come along it's usually out of the blue and you wish they would never end because you're so blissful in that perfect moment. When I first took this song to Byron (see links page for more info), I thought that it was so cheesy I'd have to sell it to S Club 7 but I've always loved it despite the stilton factor, and so I thought I'd see what Byron made of it. He put a beautiful guitar part to it and by keeping all of the backing simple, I think I've managed to keep it emotional but hopefully not too cheesy. The first time we put the guitar and vocals together, we both had the hairs on the back of our necks standing up and our hearts were beating like mad. I'd love to know whether it affects you the same way?
Lifeline was my first recorded single; a present from my parents for my 21st and it meant the world to me. I know my Dad was really proud of it and, although this is a reworked version, I hope he still would be. I'm sure the lyrics speak for themselves as to what the song is about but it's basically that totally disconnected and lost feeling you have when someone leaves you especially if it's sudden and unexpected. Luckily I know that feeling goes away eventually and that you always get a second chance at happiness if you want it.
10. Fun With Numbers
Written in one of my more mischievous moods, it's the idea of keeping the excitement in a relationship by playing some games and getting your naughty on!! ;-)
11. Why Can't I?
When the Royal Surrey (a hospital that has featured several times in my life) came under threat of closure it finally helped me to put voice to some feelings of frustration I'd had for years. It's a bit political I know but I couldn't help what I felt!
12. Take This Life
This song was the one I wrote when I decided to put 2004 behind me and make my life what it should be. Whenever things get a bit tough, I listen to this and it reminds me of how I want to live my life and helps refocus me on all the good things.